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Wednesday, December 31, 2008

LAST DAY OF 2008!!

Alright alright!! this is last moment of 2008 already!! quick quick quick !!! what you havent complete, complete it now!! just a few hours only.. hahas..

CAUTION CAUTION!! this will be a super duper long post.. please bear with me :)

This post is going to be a post where i will write down my words which i will want to tell you guys before 2008 ends, do come by here to read it, specially for you all :)

Alrights, through this year, i have encounter lots of stuffs, both good and bad, both fun and sad.. well.. overall i think this year quite sad ba.. alot of unhappiness happened..

Feburary
Like relationship, broke up with her seriously hurt me alot, the sadness have being lingering in me all this while.. from start of the year till now, the end of 2008..

March
Hmm... also spent a birthday which i dont really regard it as a memorable one.. course of her and also got scoldings from parents on my birthday itself.. well, luckily i have my friends with me :) thanks guys !!

April
Moving on to new school, nanyang polytechnic, makes me look at things differently.. let me see lots of things in life and get to know great people like my classmates :) things are still not bad when start of poly, but first result of poly sucks..

Hmm... NVNPCC have campcraft competition and we got into finals again!! :) well, must say this year competition wasnt a lucky one.. everything wasnt smooth enough.. from trainings to preliem to finals.. saw many of them cried, saw their tears and laughter during the whole process.. well.. that is a touching one.. we came in 4th and 5th.. tears shed when results announced, everyone leaving the competing ground with tears on their faces, both guys and girls.. well.. its tough to accept the result after long trainings, but its not winning that matters.. its the process that matters the most.. i can feel their sorrow when they cried, but still.. they are very good already.. determination and endurance i have seen in them, that is all they need to take home.. not that trophy, but the hardship.. well done teams!!

May and June
Went for june CI course, J08, was fun and memorable one.. its nice knowing all my squadmates and batch mates.. sad thing is have to cut hair =.= well.. was worth it ba.. and yea.. posting results came out, was deeply disappointing knowing the posting.. and was sad with officers.. for what they have said in the past and now.. for what they have guarantee us and saying another things when posting is out..

August
08/08/2008 was the day.. the day where they proudly march out as GUARD OF HONOUR contignent during north vista national day celebration 2008.. yet again, they have spent lots of trainings under the hot sun and the cold rain, taking their time off after school to train.. i must say they have marched out proudly and spent every minute out there well.. i feel so proud of them!!

08/08/2008 was also the day when my beloved sec4s threw their berets high up in the sky.. that day marks the end of their four years of service in NVNPCC.. hmm... well.. im sure some of them cried.. their last moment wearing full uniform together.. im sure NVNPCC will always stay in their heart, it will always be their second home..

First time carrying out survival training camp at pulau ubin as CI.. well.. met fun partners and have a small number of idiot partners.. met nice and caring cadets too :)

September
Its the month of her birthday, bought a small gift for her.. but in the end i have no courage to give it to her.. instead, i threw it away myself.. went to cocoa tree and started working there.. knew a caring supervisior, june :) and nice working partners, abby, michelle and zantee :)

October
Step back to school after a good one month plus holiday.. well.. some changed and some remain unchanged.. started normal school lessons and have fun with class :)

December
Have spent wonderful times from 22/12 till 25/12 with my juniors..

22/12/2008, the day where all the sec4s dressed up smartly together and have their last section of their POP, dinner and dance 2008.. recalled many of their past times and have fun during the whole event.. well, hope they always remember that day.. DnD 2008 :)

23/12 to 25/12.. had a chalet with sec4s.. hmm... have fun times with them and some emo times alone.. well.. overall, i have enjoyed with them :)

Till then, 31/12/2008, the very last moment of this year..

I have left many words for you guys..

Firstly,

To my parents, daddy and mummy..
thank you for caring for me throughout the past 17 years including this year :) sorry for shouting at you all at times.. both of you have worked hard and gave me the best that you have given me.. im contented already.. i truly appreciate your efforts.. daddy, hope your leg will recover forever and the sickness wouldnt be back to bother you anymore.. well.. i know your wouldnt be here to read what i have written for you.. but still.. i wanted to tell your that im proud to have you as my parents!! i love you daddy and mummy!! :)

To my grandma, my two aunts and my brother..
Ah ma!! thank you for looking after me when im small.. bringing me to school when small, comb my hair for me before i go school and cook my everyday meals for me when im small.. sorry i sometimes never go back to your house and chat with you, you are my best ah ma!! :) thank you ah ma!! my two aunts, thank you for giving me support!! :) giving me encouragement at times!! :) and bro!! thanks for everything that you have gave me this year :) all the best for your army!!

To my dearst 4e1 usual peeps..
Hey peeps!! one year past, and we are one year matured already.. thank you for being here with me during the times when im down!! your never fail to bring a smile back on my face :) i miss the times with you all during school :( hope i can meet up with you all often!! friends forever!! :) cheers!!

To my mei, peiyi..
Yo mei!! well.. dont be too disappointed for not being with him.. able to like someone and being like by that someone you like is considered fortunate le.. not like me.. never be able to try to like another person.. hmm... remain this happiness that you have found!! looks like you have wonderful poly friends.. enjoy your years in poly :) and thank you for sparing me with your ears when i need to pour out my heartfelt words.. thank you mei!! stay pretty and cheerful!! :)

To my three other CIs, kah wai, janice and jessica..
We have went through CI course, we have gone through so far till today!! thank you for being with me always.. no matter the good the bad, you have spent bravely with me, we have faced obstacles together.. sorry for showing my temper at times.. five years of friendship, and it will continue on for as long as it can be :) cheers CIs!!

To my sec4s..
Hey.. all the best for your O level results.. im sure it will be just perfectly fine :) well.. there is more road to walk ahead in your life, dont ever give up on yourself!! keep striving high and aim for the best!! UOPA gold this year!! thank you for all of your efforts and hardwork!! i will always keep them in mind.. my always sec4s, cheers to you guys!! :)

Edmund:
Yo CI!! welcome to this family!! all the best in your future and look forward to working with you often in the future :) stay handsome!!

Ding Xuan:
Dingding!! welcome you to this family too!! i will also look forward to working with you in the future!! Hmm... no matter what, continue on as CI!! dont because of small things and you gave up CI, jiayou!! you will have my support always :)

Steffie:
Hey.. dont be kuku head anymore.. be confident of yourself ar.. its only when you see confidence in yourself and that is when you will succeed!! No matter what, sir milfred will always support you too!! :) all the best in your future ahead!! keep in touch!!

Shijia:
Yo !! well.. you too.. must be confident of yourself!! dont always question yourself.. you are doing perfectly alright!! keep it up!! :) must try to tougher up at times, dont let people see your weaker side, hide it whenever you can!! but still, sir milfred will give you my support always too!! jiayou in your life ahead!! remember to contact!! :)

Long Xiang:
Long ge!! slim down in 2008 ar.. well done!! must a happy year for you ba.. well.. dont because of appearance and let it affect the things you wanted to do.. no one on earth is perfect, they have no rights to pin point on you.. so.. be confident ar!! natural is always the most handsome side!! all the best in your future!! :)

To my class CPT0802..
Yo guys!! nice meeting you guys!! though its not a year that we have met, but still.. i have enjoyed with you all.. thank you for the fun and laughter you guys never fail to bring to me :) looking forward to the future years ahead with you guys :)

Zhengjie and lizhen:
Yo zhengjie!! my best buddy!! thank you for being such great partner!! look forward to seeing more opportunities to work with you!! stay happy with lizhen always!! :)

Desmond and Weiting:
Yo lovely couples!! stay happy together always!! :) and thank you desmond for bringing up laughters to me :)

JianWen:
Dae!! talk softer in public please.. too loud too loud!! lolx.. joking joking :) well.. its nice knowing you and working with you all this while :) dont be too discourage in your studies, you always have this friend of yours who is just a phone call away to help you :) im more than happy to help you with your studies :) cheers man !!

Reihana:
Yo!! have being playing tennis some time ago.. hahas.. continue to work hard to play till school team!! i know you can do it!! i can forget about it.. lolx.. but no fear.. as long as there is milfred, you will never train alone!! :) cheers hana!!

To all my friends..
Yo!! nice knowing you all!! wishes you all the best in whatever you do!! stay healthy, be happy!! woohoo!! :)

And lastly..

To Gloria..
Hey.. im not sure whether you will come up my blog and read this, but.. i hope you do.. well.. just want to say.. this year so much happened.. both of us changed from a known friend to a total stranger.. i dont know what have happened.. but i just want to tell you, all i hope is just a simple friendship with you.. this is one of my resolution for 2009, hope it will come true.. its only you who can make it true.. just a simple friend, even if its a hi-bye friend, im contented already.. as long its not a total stranger..

Well.. first portion is some highlights of what have happened in 2008 for me.. and second portion will be some words that i would like to tell some of you.. hmm... but.. not biased ar.. just that too many people liao.. jiu wrote some nia.. sorry about that!!

Alrights, people.. enjoy your new year ahead!! :)

say byebye to 2008..
and hello 2009!! :)