Thursday, September 25, 2008
HELL DAYS ARE FINALLY OVER!!
Haha.. from last week start, i have being living in bad days sia.. haha.. bad as in very hard to endure.. what i cant endure leii? that will be HUNGER!! haha..
Okay.. shall say more.. from last week start.. i have plan to give something to my beloved group of people.. cause i never give them things before? haha.. aiya.. its also a small gift nia.. hmm... its suddenly thought of what to give, then scare i cant make it on time before their major exams start.. cause by the time my pay comes, their paper have started.. so.. bit meaningless liao.. haha.. jiu faster save up my daily meal money.. hmm... have being eating very little during this few days of work.. almost no energy to ren.. haha.. but.. i finally made it through!! one day of work only eat a meal.. be it full shift or morning or afternoon shifts.. im eating a meal only.. and that meal is just plain rice and one vegetable? that all? go home also nothing eat :( haha.. wanted to give up and eat more.. but.. eat more means no money.. so.. endure!! haha..
And today i finally did that.. and tomorrow going give them le!! haha.. finally~ hope they will like it? as in find it meaningful ba.. hope so.. haha..
Tomorrow is my off day! im so going to enjoy!! haha..
Okay.. move on..
TODAY IS 25TH SEPTEMBER..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY THERESA!!
Yea.. though never contact.. still friends, so must wish :) haha..
And today is 25th of the month, its the day that marks.. a special day one year and seven months ago.. thought i could celebrate every special day of the month forever.. guess i was naive to have that thinking ba.. in fact it ended liao.. and why the hell am i still lingering around this day of every month?
Many people may say is i dont want give up.. in actual fact.. i dont think of her anymore.. how come this day will still automatically ring like how you set your alarms in your phone to remind you of your important days.. its just like this.. keep ringing on its own.. i have erased everything and yet.. it still rings..
I felt sad, at the same time i felt regretted. Sad cause memories recalled.. regretted cause i have being silly to let her treat me this way..
I really want go in front of her.. raise up my both hands and surrender.. let her do what she wants.. torture me.. end my life.. anything.. just wish to see her replies.. that all.. i will go nuts one of this day if this keeps on.. im serious..
Alrights.. going to sleep..
Byebye!!
不说话的爱，才是最珍贵的爱..
